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Posted 10/20/2016 4:39 PM


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Warm Ouroboros wrote: "I googled this death threat business and got a few hits with some pretty unsavory stuff. There seem to be tons of gay porn blogs on the internet more concerned with the gossip girl aspects of the business than with the quality of the porn. It wasn't pleasant to read."

Let's just hope that Nica steers clear of all that gay-porn crap from this point on!

Warlock wrote: "Regardless of WHY she came in here, at least she did it. Which is more than you can say for just about every other single creative force in gg today aside from Mike Quasar and Lily Cade."

I have ALWAYS respected those writers, directors, & producers who aren't afraid to visit forums like this one and hear what their customers have to say. I'll admit that we're a rambunctious bunch, but we're also not afraid to speak our minds over what we like & dislike!

"I miss her, her wit, and her ability to engage us and actually listen to us. It's rare and I hope she comes back."

Agreed, Warlock! Nica has ALWAYS been one of my all-time favorites! I miss her and hope she'll make an appearance here sometime soon!

- I also hope she begins directing/producing girl/girl videos again very soon!
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Posted 10/20/2016 5:07 PM


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I absolutely miss Nica directing g/g, Anon. I will hold up her run on Girl Candy against a similar period of any other video company, bar none. She really delivered the goods in that period, and while I first and foremost hope she is physically and psychologically well, I anxiously await her glorious return to the genre that she was made to produce.
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Posted 10/22/2016 7:54 PM


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Quote: Regardless of WHY she came in here, at least she did it. Which is more than you can say for just about every other single creative force in gg today aside from Mike Quasar and Lily Cade. I miss her, ...

I, too...am happy when ANY creative people come here and share...Nica's observations are especially insightful..I was just making an observation.

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Posted 10/22/2016 9:25 PM


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Quote: I absolutely miss Nica directing g/g, Anon. I will hold up her run on Girl Candy against a similar period of any other video company, bar none. She really delivered the goods in that period, and whi...

Absolutely. And when you figure in Nica's Sweetheart g/g titles, it is an even more impressive body of work as director. In fact, I would go so far as to say she is AVN Hall of Fame worthy.

Let us hope that Nica is first and foremost doing well healthwise as you stated. And should she decide to return to g/g, there is no question in my mind that she will be welcomed back by the majority of lezlovers most enthusiastically.

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Posted 11/21/2016 10:09 PM


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Hey guys, it's me Nica - I'm so sorry that i worried you, and thank you for caring about me. I'm going to write a little blog here, just for this forum, to tell you everything. So for those of you who don't like long winded posts and are not interested, I apologize and just skip over this!

I made a conscious decision to leave the internet about three or four months ago. I didn't stop filming, but I deleted all social media and stopped giving interviews and all that stuff. It was mostly because of death threats I'd been receiving from a gay porn fan. I began receiving the threats (via email) as I was simultaneously being smeared by a particularly vicious gay porn blogger. The blogger in question has a reputation for doxxing anyone he views as an enemy, and he sometimes encourages his victims to kill themselves to escape the daily shame and harassment he puts them through. Many of his targets are young gay men, often made fragile by drug addiction or other personal challenges. I always made it a point to book the boys he would target, which further cemented his hostility for me.

Anyway, the blogger published & tweeted my real name along with information about a new (non-porn) career I had embarked upon, complete with links to my employer's website. (he was tipped off by someone I'd mistakenly trusted.) I was still receiving regular death threats at the time, and it occurred to me that I might be in real danger if the person threatening my life read the posts about where I worked. I felt I had little choice but to leave my new job, and I did so pretty much immediately.

The hostility Ive endured in gay porn is mostly due to the studio's popularity, but I played a role in it, too. I have a history of engaging people when they attack me online, which we all know only makes things worse. Not having a social media or other internet presence means it's harder to target me and I do think it's better that way.

As for doing more g/g, I was beside myself with happiness after shooting A Mother's Secret and I really hoped I could continue doing more titles. Dana and I were both excited that we might be allowed to trade off studios every month or so and offer more variety to g/g and gay porn fans. But unfortunately, and this is embarrassing, I am very far behind on gay titles. The reason I am behind is partially due to the nature of our titles (we do a lot of themes that require special casting) but it's also because of the performers' flakiness. The combination can make it very hard to meet deadlines and stay within budget. It's now been nearly three years of struggling with regular no call/no shows, last minute cancellations, missed flights, failed scenes - you name it.

Long story short, Mile High wants me to turn in all the late gay titles and start with a clean slate before we make any changes. So I am TRYING SO HARD to catch up. Once I have done so we can discuss new projects, including the possibility of a new girl/girl studio.

As for returning to Sweetheart, the issue would still be that my style of shooting is not consistent with SHV's current look. It's become a lot more glossy and stylish, and the casts are mostly LA porn stars. I live in New England, so if I shot g/g I'd want to work with local talent here whenever possible. I'd also want to keep shooting with my old school Sony cameras, which have a very different look than the ones Dana uses to shoot today's SHV titles. Those two things alone would change Sweetheart in ways that not everyone would like. I know there are also fans who miss the "old Sweetheart," but that's why starting a new studio might make more sense.

So that's kind of it. I am quietly trying to catch up on my gay titles and then I can move on. I don't know what if any opportunities in g/g will be available to me at that point, though. Honestly I feel a bit emotionally and mentally traumatized from my time in adult film, especially gay porn. But maybe I'll bounce back. I can't say yet, because with each month I feel more inclined to leave everything about show business behind. My life is so different here, and people treat me so differently -- I feel like a normal person again. I've lost interest in being a public figure and all that comes with it. I don't keep in touch with many of the people I knew from the LA porn scene, but I have reconnected with several friends I was close to before my porn career took off. It's like I just came out of a 10 year coma and I'm trying to put the pieces of my life back together. (Why do all my friends look so old?)

I hope everyone is doing great, and I'm sorry this is so damn long! Sinestro, I will also try better to respond to emails in a timely manner, and of course you are my friend. <3

Thank you so much for your friendship and kindness. I love you guys.

xx Nica
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Posted 11/22/2016 4:58 AM
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It's frightening to see how far some people can go.
Before you start shooting GG again, make sure you're alright.
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Posted 11/22/2016 5:53 AM
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Thank you again, Nica, for taking the time, and making the effort, to inform us on what it going on with you.

It is a little amazing to me that a blogger can get away with the disgusting things that you describe in your post here. I sincerely believe that the legal system has not kept up with some of the negative changes that the creation of the "virtual world" has thrust upon us.

I don't recall there being much of a brouhaha about the film making style of "A Mother's Secret", and it seemed to sell well. Personally, I would love to see you and Dana Vespoli trade months or, whatever trading arrangement you two could, to be able to work in the two different porn genres.
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Posted 11/22/2016 10:34 AM
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Nica,

Thank you for the kindness to respond to this thread. It is pathetic and sad to hear of this victimization that so disrupted your life. The beauty of your g/g scenes and the times we were treated to seeing you in some of them are special things in life and so opposite of the abusive and nasty things you have had to endure.

If you do return to g/g productions, I hope you apply your unique talents to focus on the erotic, sensual and exciting depictions of kissing, body worship, luscious sounds and orgasms (with "real women who are truly into women" and "real sex") that made your work so awesome.

Best...
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Posted 11/22/2016 3:55 PM


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Welcome back, Nica. Be safe and well, first of all.

You are greatly, greatly missed in this genre, and on this board. You hit the bullseye (for me, anyway) in terms of knowing what is erotic in g/g, and capturing it onscreen.

I hope you are able to keep the communication lines open. I'll keep an expectant eye out for that g/g studio.
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Posted 11/22/2016 8:22 PM


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Thank you all so much! I just got home and logged in to see if I had some responses. :-)

Humble yes, Mother's Secret had very good sales, which is why Mile High said they'd be open to doing a new gg studio. But it's not about sales, it's about "branding." It's keeping the studio looking consistent. I can't conform to a more mainstream look, or it would be easier. It's why I can't do Sweet Sinner films either - it's so different now than it was when I created it. I'd be better off starting all over again. And I'm sure as soon as I leave the gay studio the same thing will happen there. I'm like a stick in the mud.

But I truly promise to keep you guys posted on everything. And if you're ever wondering what's happening or just want to say hi, or nudge me to come here to take part in some discussion or another, you can always email me at Noelle.Nica at gmail.

Big hugs and Happy Thanksgiving! xoxo
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